出走,近年聽得多,動聽而灑脫。 25歲的我得到一個無限期出走的機會,到英國生活。大部份人對我的舉動,回應是「你就好啦」「做英國人啦」,除了母親大人一句「梗係香港好啦!」。總之,大約5個月的準備時間,就飛走了。 面對香港慘不忍睹的政局、可笑的政客,很多人都說有機會會頭也不回地離開。但說到底,還是不忍心離開這片可愛的成長地。當你到了一個人口稀少的城市,周末出街你會問人都去了哪裹,你會突然懷念尖沙咀的擠迫;客套的英語說得多,你會懷念率直而抵死的廣東話。 出走並非想像中如此簡單灑脫,機場轉身一剎,湧出的眼淚告訴我有多不捨這個地方。20多年的生活突然變成回憶,與最親的家人說再見。張開眼睛時,已是陌生的環境、陌生的語言,與周遭的人連面孔特徵也不一樣。 留下來何其容易,睡醒又重覆一日;離開,才要鼓起最大的力氣重新走過。 電影The Curious Case of Benjamin Button,Benjamin送給女兒的一番話: "For what it's worth: it's never too late or, in my case, too early to be whoever you want to be. There's no time limit, stop whenever you want. You can change or stay the same, there are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. And I hope you see things that startle you. I hope you feel things you never felt before. I hope you meet people with a different point of view. I hope you live a life you're proud of. If you find that you're not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again" 走了,若任何事,希望有勇氣重頭來過。