後記。。。嗰三日真係rollar coaster. .Day 3 ...Embryologist 打黎話得兩粒fertilise得好，其他6粒都fertilised但個grade 比較差... Grading were: 3-2,3-4,1-1,3-1,2-1,fragment,2-1,1-1.由五粒到八粒到六粒到兩粒... 心情好差... Embryologist 都好好，都話會繼續放住喺culture 先， you never know what happens.當然。。去到Day 5, 無奇蹟出現啦...有一粒好生性，合格夠靚可以freeze ✌️ ，Grade 4BB. 另一粒就未夠靚， Embryologist 就話可以放多一日，睇下佢發展成點。 嗰朝收到電話之後，我嗰半朝都做唔到野，匿埋喺廁所喊，搵Maria傾訴同喊，咁啱又同 Judith catch up, 又喊... 真係好傷心，怪自己係唔係做preparation 做得唔夠好，食得唔夠多protein, supplement. 不過 Judith 講左句，if it's that important and evidence based well, they would have given you a list of things to do or to eat. 佢講完之後我feel much better about it. Maybe that's what British is good at, looking at the positive sides of things.Day 6, 當然又係無奇蹟啦~ 最後嗰粒都唔夠good grade 去freeze. 所以就有 the one and only embryo in the freezer la. 我地命佢為 胎神！！ Embryologist 講左句，你同fertility team 傾下，睇下會唔會做多個cycle 啦。 佢講完之後我就lor lor 攣，原本諗住一個就放入去先啦，但佢咁講又幾有道理，多啲喺個bank度，好似穩陣啲。好啦，等到星期一，姑娘打黎話同我安排做FET, 跟住我話，唔係可以選擇做多次fresh/egg collection 咩？ 姑娘load 1 load . 同我分析返 clinically that's what the consultant has suggested, becoz of high risk of OHSS. 如果我想自己同consultant 傾，咁就要等到八月先有期😳 但funding 黎睇，做多次egg collection 係包嘅，但如果今次做左FET後，生左小朋友，咁就唔會再qualify for fertility treatment. 即係話，我今次選擇FET又成功的話，我就會無frozen embryo in the bank, 要再生就要全private 。姑娘比我同partner 傾下先。我自己當時諗法係做多次egg collection, 之後再放1.唔使老來再經歷多次，因為個process 唔係話好辛苦，但老兩年個身體再差啲我就唔知自己會有咩反應。 2. 唔使咁重皮£££，如果今次有多啲embryo in freezer, 咁我下次private 出個錢就只係放入去嗰一轉，用少好多錢。3. 我一直都想要兩個小朋友，但係如果咁樣，都唔知有冇下一個不過周圍啲人都唔係咁諗，老公唔想我咁辛苦，一個就一個啦，同埋生完小朋友仲有好多變數，可能natural 又得，真係唔得又好想要咪privately fund囉咁。 媽咪睇法係完全唔想我再做一次，因為又打過hormone，本身個身體唔知受唔受到。反而生完小朋友個身體可能仲會好啲Tim,所以佢極力讚成直接做FET。家姐諗法同我有啲似，趁funding仲有同後生，就做多次先。不過最後我見媽咪同老公都好似好擔心咁，咁好啦。。我就照去FET啦。都喊左好幾次㗎，覺得好似揀FET就等如人生只有一個小朋友，同埋好似得自己against the world 咁。Anyways , 揀左就照去！
